Night Thoughts (idk)

Why are you like this,

why you do that to yourself,

just talk,

please talk.

Please, say something.

No one will judge you, I promise.

The world is waiting for you,don't miss it.

       -You don't understand, You can't feel what I feel. You don't know what is like to be surrounded by people and can't say a fucking word because there's sulfur inside of you, that melts you, breaks you, cuts up your words, You don't know. I wish I was like you. I wish I could say everything that comes up to my mind. I don't want to think so much, to think deeply about stuff.

You're so messed up. 

You're so special, you're so beautiful,

 please, I just want you to be happy, I don't want to see you sad, I don't want to think of you, closed up in your world, alone and feeling lonely. Please, don't do that.

 I care about you. I really do.

       -I know, thank you, I'm already crying, see? I feel too much, every word is like a knife in my heart, it can cut or shape it. It's so difficult. I'm so quiet it hurts. 

I want to fucking hug you and dry up those tears